[HE DID NOT GET GUTTED IN HANNIBAL LECTER'S KITCHEN WHILE BOTH FREDS WERE TOTALLY OKAY FOR THIS
So many things pop to mind. Assertions, corrections, to Will's thinking. Then he hits what basically reads like he's being disowned, and he starts thinking up what sounds like excuses. He'd sat on this information until he felt he absolutely no longer could because of how poorly it might come across and now...he knows the look of a stray dog that was born in the wild and the look of one abandoned. He has Abigail, yes, of course he does, and he'll focus on her, but still. All his arguments vanish, his throat dries up, he feels like his own scar's been scratched at by malicious nails. Except they aren't Chilton's, they're his own. He's dug a grave. He knew this could turn badly, but him being turned out was not what he expected. His excuses feed into the idea of making Chilton his victim, or could be twisted that way. He mulls it over a good five minutes (locked in the bathroom) before he says anything back, and then it's either exactly what Chilton expected or nothing like it. He doesn't know. He's at a loss, anticipating loss, and desperately trying to figure out how to prevent that loss from being too great.]
just inpublic?
[Not talking to each other on the Network? Sure, okay, fine. Not approaching each other if they're at the same Swear-Ins? Fine. But this can't be in public to him, too, right? They still have this, don't they? Or meeting somewhere no one else could see them? He's not—he's not cutting off him entirely, is he? He couldn't. He wouldn't. ...right?
Insult and kick (though, if Will is completely off the mark about all this, he's done that to Chilton throughout this conversation, too), Will doesn't want to be set free. Even though he started this by the implied threat that Will could spill the beans, the actual threat is one Chilton just unleashed and Will hadn't thought about as being a possibility. Maybe it's obvious to Chilton that he won jackpot, in his own way, through the glaring issues in Will's typing. Abandonment requires expectation. Will has always expected that regardless of what Chilton and he might get into with, no one ends up abandoned. So he latches onto the only thing he really feels he can. The only thing that might be worth latching onto, to show willingness that he can behave. He can work within set boundaries. He can prove that even though he's not changed in the best way, he's not actually a psychotic sadist. He isn't a blossoming Chesapeake Ripper onto himself. He can be trusted. He can be a good boy.]
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HE DID NOT GET GUTTED IN HANNIBAL LECTER'S KITCHEN WHILE BOTH FREDS WERE TOTALLY OKAY FOR THISSo many things pop to mind. Assertions, corrections, to Will's thinking. Then he hits what basically reads like he's being disowned, and he starts thinking up what sounds like excuses. He'd sat on this information until he felt he absolutely no longer could because of how poorly it might come across and now...he knows the look of a stray dog that was born in the wild and the look of one abandoned. He has Abigail, yes, of course he does, and he'll focus on her, but still. All his arguments vanish, his throat dries up, he feels like his own scar's been scratched at by malicious nails. Except they aren't Chilton's, they're his own. He's dug a grave. He knew this could turn badly, but him being turned out was not what he expected. His excuses feed into the idea of making Chilton his victim, or could be twisted that way. He mulls it over a good five minutes (locked in the bathroom) before he says anything back, and then it's either exactly what Chilton expected or nothing like it. He doesn't know. He's at a loss, anticipating loss, and desperately trying to figure out how to prevent that loss from being too great.]
just inpublic?
[Not talking to each other on the Network? Sure, okay, fine. Not approaching each other if they're at the same Swear-Ins? Fine. But this can't be in public to him, too, right? They still have this, don't they? Or meeting somewhere no one else could see them? He's not—he's not cutting off him entirely, is he? He couldn't. He wouldn't. ...right?
Insult and kick (though, if Will is completely off the mark about all this, he's done that to Chilton throughout this conversation, too), Will doesn't want to be set free. Even though he started this by the implied threat that Will could spill the beans, the actual threat is one Chilton just unleashed and Will hadn't thought about as being a possibility. Maybe it's obvious to Chilton that he won jackpot, in his own way, through the glaring issues in Will's typing. Abandonment requires expectation. Will has always expected that regardless of what Chilton and he might get into with, no one ends up abandoned. So he latches onto the only thing he really feels he can. The only thing that might be worth latching onto, to show willingness that he can behave. He can work within set boundaries. He can prove that even though he's not changed in the best way, he's not actually a psychotic sadist. He isn't a blossoming Chesapeake Ripper onto himself. He can be trusted. He can be a good boy.]