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Dr. Frederick Chilton ([personal profile] slightlyoffchilt) wrote2013-10-01 10:26 pm
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- IC CONTACT POST FOR MASKORMENACE -



"Hello.

You've reached the direct line of Doctor Frederick Chilton. As I am not available at the moment, you might assume I'm quite busy with something pressing. State your name and business, and I will return your call."
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[personal profile] hisheartsdesire 2015-10-15 11:34 am (UTC)(link)
[Meeting Chilton's gaze, Tobias suddenly finds himself feeling unsure. He isn't medically versed and isn't quite ready to give up drinking just yet. Other than blood, it's the only thing he consumes, and he very much enjoys the taste of it.]

—If I may ask, what is an SSRI, and what is it supposed to do, exactly?

[Chilton has already mentioned there's no telling how it would actually affect a vampire, and so Tobias can't help feeling concerned. At the very least, it'd be good to know what the drug should be doing. That way, he could determine its effectiveness.

And then, of course, Dorian. He seems quite wary about Chilton and uncomfortable with the idea of Tobias seeking therapy from him. But in the end, he relented, accepting that Tobias wants and needs help. Still, Tobias swallows, hoping the dryness in his mouth will go away, and his tone is slightly defensive.
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...And how do you mean, about Dorian? Being with him, being around him makes me happy.
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[personal profile] hisheartsdesire 2015-10-18 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[Tobias thinks he gets the general idea—normal levels of some brain chemical lead to distress, but there's a drug that could make more of said brain chemical. As impatient and dismissive as Chilton's answer is, Tobias caves to the suggestion, experimental as it may be. After what appears to be a moment or two of contemplation, he nods with some degree of understanding.]

Then, I think. I might want to give it a chance. An SSRI, I mean.

But Dorian, on the other hand... [When it comes to Dorian, it appears Chilton has his doubts. Meanwhile, Tobias himself needs a little longer to think about the doctor's question. Depressive or not, 'intoxication' makes what they have sound negative. For all that Dorian could be callous, dismissive, and completely narcissistic, Tobias feels he's found and owns a part of Dorian that is decidedly less self-serving and vainglorious. His Dorian Gray is different from what other people see of him.]

He's... Supportive, he doesn't try to control me or pressure me, even when we disagree. I told him I needed help and thought of going to you, and sure, he protested at first. But then he yielded to my decision, didn't push the point or try to argue with me any further. [Much like when Tobias had decided to take his own life thirty years ago.] So no, I don't think that sounds much like intoxication.
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[personal profile] hisheartsdesire 2015-10-20 03:32 am (UTC)(link)
[Chilton's smugness and certainty trigger anger within Tobias, who finds the insinuation insulting. He's all too quick to reply with great conviction.]

—Dorian may be like that with everyone else. But not with me. He wouldn't just become bored with me. If there truly were a point to be made, he'd have made it.

[It's through this angry outburst that his fear manifests—the dreadful fear from the swear-in, the possibility that Dorian would leave him. Dorian hadn't even imagined in their home world that Tobias would come back. And for the whole year that Dorian had been in this world, he hadn't so much as hoped to see Tobias again. He remembers Dorian's admission from their first conversation, when he'd broken into Dorian's place. Back then, Dorian had expected to see Abduxel, not him.

And so, as he continues, his protestations the very same arguments he wants to believe.
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He does support me, care about me, like no other. [A beat, and then a reminder:] I am his heart's desire.
Edited 2015-10-20 03:32 (UTC)
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[personal profile] hisheartsdesire 2015-10-20 04:26 am (UTC)(link)
[It bothers Tobias how assured Chilton seems in judging his relationship with Dorian, and the way he seems to expect things to go wrong. But when Chilton moves on, so does Tobias, though he hardly feels any better now than when he'd arrived. He's still listening to Chilton's instructions, wondering whether the drugs might actually help him.]

... Yes, I understand.

[Still, he frowns and side-eyes the 'no drinking' business. Surely he shouldn't have to stop drinking; it's not as if Tobias ever got drunk anyway. So why shouldn't the drink be an exception? The only things he consumes are blood and alcohol, and as of current, his meal selection has only three varieties.

Then, he wonders if this concludes their first session. If so, he's coming out of it pretty awkward...
]
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[personal profile] hisheartsdesire 2015-10-22 06:49 pm (UTC)(link)
You're not wrong.

[Though he's still scowling as he answers. It's so much easier to recall negative experiences than positive ones, and so Lucy, Laurie, and Sasha are the first who come to mind; they are all people who cannot accept who or what he is. At least, that's how Tobias sees things. But he now feels as if his thoughts are all muddled, or mentally exhausted.]

But I think it can wait. There's a lot to contemplate and get sorted, though... [Is that what these sessions are supposed to be for?] Would it be all right to get my thoughts better collected for next time?
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[personal profile] hisheartsdesire 2015-10-26 11:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[Between Chilton's tone and short complement, Toby starts feeling just a little more assured. Something about it makes him feel somewhat accomplished. Then again, he did manage to open up about Ivar and the fledglings.

So he also maintains eye contact as he rises from his chair.
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Thank you, Doctor. Until next time.