slightlyoffchilt | - IC CONTACT POST FOR MASKORMENACE -

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- IC CONTACT POST FOR MASKORMENACE -

"Hello.

You've reached the direct line of Doctor Frederick Chilton. As I am not available at the moment, you might assume I'm quite busy with something pressing. State your name and business, and I will return your call."

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[sorry Chilton, can't hear you over low self-esteem and crippling doubt.]

No, it is my fault. It was my actions that made the Lizard, any mayhem that animal causes is my fault.

But you never intended for that specific outcome, did you? As unfortunate as it is, and there's hardly denying any of that, such a consequences does not make you inherently a bad person.

[No comment on guilt again, not yet. Baby steps, Curt.]

You're right. I didn't intend for that outcome...but there was so much I could have done to prevented it.

Hindsight is twenty-twenty, of course -- of course you feel responsible, and in no way would I invalidate that. But I trust you've analyzed your actions and their hypothetical consequences deeply. You're running yourself into the ground, aren't you?

[Yes. Yes he is.]

Well what else can I do?

You can recognize that your intention has some importance, too. You never intended catastrophe, and while you could have done different things to prevent this outcome, you surely would have if only you had known what would happen.

Is that not true?

That...I guess you're right. If I could have changed it, I would have. After all, if I knew what had happened I wouldn't...well, I wouldn't go to the talk for one.

Exactly. This particular consequence was unforeseeable -- and it's damaging to invoke excess guilt because of it, Curt. The very fact you feel any guilt is a sure sign of your humanity, of course, but an onslaught of anything can be damaging to your mental state. That guilt feeds into regret, and self esteem issues, and -- Well. We don't want a vicious cycle, do we?

You're right. We don't. But people still got hurt--I can't not feel guilty about that.

And the best way to counter that guilt is to take measures to secure yourself, next time this happens. So you cannot be in a position to hurt anyone. Don't you think so?

I do.

The problem here was that the expo was so public. I don't know if there even was a place where I could go.

[Chilton exhales, slowly, considering. When he speaks, it's gentle. Calm.

Helpful.]

What if we built something for you? At the hospital? A sort of -- safe haven?

[Connors is equal parts confused and interested because what?]

I'm not entirely sure I know what you mean.

Something that could prevent you from hurting others. A containment center.

To be honest, that sounds wonderful.

I would love to make arrangements. Perhaps I could draw up the proposal and invite you to review it? Before I submit the idea officially, I mean.

That'd be good. After all, I know how this thing works best of all. And...anything to keep people safe.

Have you encountered a metal that you couldn't break? Out of curiosity?

Not to my knowledge. [a pause, and then.] It is a reptile, though. And reptiles are ectotherms--they get their energy from outside sources, like light and heat. While it can generate some heat by itself, cold and darkness would definitely keep it sluggish.

A cold, dark containment center, indeed. We can configure something suitable, I imagine, especially with your academic input. Doctor.

Thank you, Doctor Chilton. You don't know how reassured this makes me.

I'm more than happy to help, Curt. Your concerns are equivalent to mine.

Anyway, I'm sure you've got better things to be doing at the moment...but again, thanks.

I'll contact you later, shall I? About the proposal.

But until then -- [He lowers his voice, angling a comfortable volume.] Do you need anything else? Any way I can additionally help you, now?

I can't think of anything at the moment. Though...thank you.

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