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Dr. Frederick Chilton ([personal profile] slightlyoffchilt) wrote2013-10-01 10:26 pm
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- IC CONTACT POST FOR MASKORMENACE -



"Hello.

You've reached the direct line of Doctor Frederick Chilton. As I am not available at the moment, you might assume I'm quite busy with something pressing. State your name and business, and I will return your call."
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[personal profile] infomodder 2015-07-25 12:57 am (UTC)(link)
How can you say that? If he's any good at being— [don't say his name] —what you'd expect, of course it matters. Everything he says about you to anyone matters. He should be aware of who'll talk and who won't, whatever gets back to you he doesn't tell you himself should be something he says with the expectation of you finding out! He's the—

[Confusion, aggravation at not being able to word it properly (omitting a name when he's not sure if that means all other names, too, is a serious pain in the ass), Will leans back in his seat, throwing out one hand.]

If he's smart, it matters. If you're saying he isn't smart...what's the point?

[Will's close to this whole dealing with the devil, empathizing with him, thinking of those verbal nudges left by Hannibal to him and others, and a little heated at what he perceives as Chilton shutting him out for saying something he doesn't like. His own "deal" went sour, and Raina's made it sound like this isn't headed to shit but is already there. Will is going to do what he has to if it comes to that, but having already experienced what happens when deals go down the drain? He'd really rather not. He'd rather pull up his shirt, give Chilton details from home (more tactfully worded than king on the chessboard), do everything possible to prevent that. What was to stop the devil from dragging in more than Raina? This was another Greek tragedy unfolding, and Chilton wasn't the only one who could decide he wanted a change in genre.]
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[personal profile] infomodder 2015-07-26 09:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[All signs of restlessness go out at the window at that tone, Will watching Chilton carefully, completely settled. He doesn't pick at anything, he doesn't rub his face, his knees don't bounce, he doesn't look around at anything and everything else he possibly can. Not unlike that pet that hears No or Stop, the one they know is absolutely serious. Except Will's not really afraid of getting smacked by a rolled up newspaper, so it's not a sign he's going to roll over and show his belly (not yet) and hope all is forgiven. It does, fortunately, squash anything too cutting, too argumentative, too rude.]

Raina said that he's blackmailing her because of what you're trying to do with him. [Calm, steady, neutral.] He's moved beyond you already. What's to stop him moving beyond her if he feels he can get away with it?

[Will can handle the devil. Abigail, however, doesn't deserve this, and she's the only other one connected to Chilton from their shared home. So Chilton can be dismissive, sure! That doesn't mean Will has to respect his dismissal when there is a risk of Abigail being put into something, again, that she never asked for and doesn't want. Yes, this matters to him. It will matter to him until either Lucifer or Chilton are gone or this is clearly done away with, and no amount of irritation or ugh Will you don't get it never mind is going to persuade him otherwise.]
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[personal profile] infomodder 2015-07-26 10:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't usually empathize with inanimate objects. And there's no martyr-knight. I'll have to think about it and get back to you later.

[No mockery, no underlying haha you were out of your mind. It's tossed out with good nature to it, playful banter, friendly, no bite to be found. There was even a flicker of a smile as he spoke, gone when he's done. Frowning, clearly worried about something, hands moving to settle in his lap. Chilton might find it a familiar gesture. The way Will's arms tuck closer to his stomach than usual, his hands rest higher on his legs. How it looks like he's protecting his stomach despite there being no immediate threat, just in case, like old wounds might reopen at any second, concern for something outside his body getting in because it's happened before.]

I admit I've made a. Habit. To avoid certain individuals. I know I can attract a type, indulge when I shouldn't. But I have no interest in being interesting to him. It's tiresome. I feel thin. And. [Start-stop, if he practiced this little talk in the mirror, he probably didn't practice much because he knew it wouldn't do shit.] I should've told you months ago. Shown you. Called you when I was in the hospital, something. Maybe it would've been helpful. It felt wrong then. But it feels more wrong Abigail can't hide hers without a lot of work while you and I...just put on shirts.

[His eyes dart around as he speaks, mostly to Chilton's shelves, never staying on anything too long. But he gathers again, looks at Chilton as he brings up Abigail and drops some very heavy clues about scars. As good as directly telling him, almost. A look that drops to his lap with talk of putting on shirts, one hand coming up to idly toy with the hem of his own.]
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[personal profile] infomodder 2015-07-29 09:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[For all intents and purposes, it doesn't seem like that shot lands. Will hears it, of course he's paying attention, but he doesn't come close to rolling his eyes or sighing or giving out A Look. There is normalcy in him getting a bit of flak because of his empathy, like hell is he going to go out of his way to discourage something normal. Stabilizing. Stability waffles at Our scars, momentary confusion that gets swallowed down and bitten back as soon as it flickers over his face. Eyes glance off at absolutely nothing on the floor, body almost limp, only changing when Chilton brings up how he doesn't feel guilt. He goes from drained to taking a breath, hardening as he looks back at Chilton—he's clearly alive and present but something's not quite matching. A lack of vibrancy in his eyes, borderline dead, Will Graham weary like Jesse Pinkman had been weary. The body is willing but the mind is shutting down.]

You're not attached to her like I am, Frederick. I would never expect you to feel the same guilt about Abigail I do. [Carefully chosen words, slowly delivered. He has no desire for his voice to come through in a way that, if one took Abigail out of the equation and left the rest, it would still be accurate. He doesn't want to leave anything out there to be read into.] Our scars aren't crippling now. But if you go through with this, judging by how Raina and you talk about him, that could change. Having my stomach cut open isn't an experience I'm aching to repeat. I assumed you'd feel the same in that regard.

["he seems to believe he can outsmart the devil" had played over in Will's head. Good way to get a plus sign on his stomach! Or the equivalent of that, psychologically. Emotionally. Probably after watching the few people he gave a shit about (so...Raina) go through their own hell, too. Will had some weird dreams that night.]
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[personal profile] infomodder 2015-07-30 04:19 am (UTC)(link)
[He wrinkles his nose, but keeps any offense out of his tone.]

I don't gallivant with Crane. He and I are coworkers who barely tolerate each other on a good day. Because of your warnings.

[Like hell Will told anyone he went to Crane in the first place, much less why he went there, and he doubts Crane told anyone, either. This is all the easier when can rationalize it as not really a lie. Sometimes coworkers help with a move, or pets, or plants, or anything else...Crane's coworker helpfulness simply hinged on fear instead.]

You told me once you'd ensure we are kept safe. Deals with [he shuts his mouth before he blurts it out, Chilton may notice one request of his has been respected] aren't keeping anybody safe. I'm not here to chastise, I'm here to prevent. I—I spent over a week away from my wife and Abigail tracking someone down just because you asked me...you know why I'm invested. Why your business isn't unrelated.

[He does, doesn't he? He must. He used that to his advantage when Will confronted him about talks with Crane, he pulled the rug out from under his feet entirely and threatened abandonment. Even if he questions the depth of Will's loyalty (Abigail will always be first, after all), even if he questions his motivations (keeping Chilton from this or keeping Will from having to step in later if anything happens), he has to realize that Will's always going to be invested because he's invested in Chilton. The man in front of his desk watches him closely, drinks in his words and movements with every bit of focus he possesses. He's clearly invested right now. For better or worse.

When it's mostly worse, that also provides normalcy.
]
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[personal profile] infomodder 2015-07-31 12:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[He falls silent, face a mirror of Chilton's tiredness. He doesn't flinch or physically make note of that bit of wordplay, faith in the context of clandestine meetings with the devil. He catches it, of course he does, but all of them have become much more aware of cannibalistic meanings in everyday phrases, and Will has become very familiar with them being wielded both literally and metaphorically. For a few seconds, it looks like Chilton's request will be honored...if only because Will seems completely drained on this particular fight.

But then he leans forward and starts digging in his shirt pocket without hesitation or slowness, pulling out three separate receipts that get gently placed on Chilton's desk. A plane ticket from just outside Albuquerque to the airport nearest Heropa. A motel in Tennessee that, judging by the name and motto (Shady Oaks Motel - We Don't Ask, We NoTell) and price, was cheap in every way. And food while he waited on his flight, where it's more than obvious Will hadn't sat down and had a full meal until he'd been called off and took advantage of someone else footing the bill. He even had a large milkshake, the glutton.
]

An iota is doable. On the condition that, should you find yourself in over your head, you tell me immediately. [You're not alone, I'm right beside you. It wasn't Jack who went romping about the snow and put a bullet in Abel Gideon's head...and it was Will who weaseled him back into the spot where Hannibal could get a hold on him and finish him off. Whoops.] So what ground did you feel the need to cover today?

[He has no time to lay in bed and mope about what's inside him when there are things that need doing, when there is more than a pack of dogs relying on him. So he cooks, takes cares of issues around the house, goes over bait shop business with Abigail, works in the garden with Grey, he'll spend some evenings drinking with Jeff, and all of that takes him away from himself. He doesn't enjoy (suffer?) such domesticity with Chilton, but he's still family. Any problems that arise for him can be dealt with the same as breakfast, low profits, adding mulch, or sitting around shooting the shit. Will might put up a bit more fuss than he would those others, mind, but that's to be expected, isn't it? That's how they've always been, ever since that first Doctor Graham and Will all but hiding behind the sturdy form of Jack Crawford.]
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[personal profile] infomodder 2015-08-08 07:22 am (UTC)(link)
[He keeps his gaze on Chilton, disbelief blossoming. In minute ways he could also liken to veins. The veins of someone lifting just past their usual, showing and prominent, or one particularly blue underneath a layer of very pale skin. It's there in a barely lifted eyebrow, in the slight tilt of his head, in the way his bottom lip sucks in. He speaks of Crane's deal with the devil as something for Will to consider after he'd accused Will of suckling the man, nods to Hannibal while keeping a lid on the two of them really discussing the Number One Ripper, and Will digests this with the bare minimum of disbelief. He's already gone quite far in the reassurance that he's beside Chilton should things go to shit or should they not, he can't afford to be more direct. And then that last question hits and his lips part just enough to draw in a quiet, short breath. Close to his heart is right.

It's like he came home to find all five of his neatly-made water beds stripped. There is an extreme aggravation that his territory has been invaded and something taken, but they're still intact. Whoever did such a terrible thing could have gone further and punctured them all, made a real mess, but they didn't. There is little harm in needing to redo beds, much less harm than having to replace them. Will absorbs it just the same. He's been poked, not provoked. A small, minor offense compared to what could have been.
]

She's doing as well as can be expected. [She'd been stuck with their own devil for months and has issues regarding being complicit in how Will had almost been left to rot. The Swear-In was a bump, sure, but there's much more underneath that particular surface, and this room full of friends knows it.] She runs the bait shop now. I can't be there more than once a week, usually. She's a co-owner, so it's as much hers as it is mine.

[Tone controlled, any attempts to sound like hollow, basic answers pulled away from him by a creeping tightness. Telling without being too telling—life goes on. Chilton had given Will "wild goose chases" that kept his mind occupied, perhaps he'd find Will's gift a similar tactic instead of simply believing Abigail needed to own something. But then his hardness cracks, a visible softening with more to it than just getting to speak praise of Abigail, of his family. There's a realization that he actually can go a bit further with Chilton. That he won't pull the same sort of insanity Hannibal ever would. Will can be fond and caring and attached to others in Chilton's presence and he won't immediately think of ways to destroy the leftovers so he's all Will has.]

She calls April Step Momster sometimes. They get along very well. We're fortunate in that regard.

[He dares a smile, dares to show himself a man utterly devoted to his family and quite happy about it. Happier than he'd ever been when anyone would let him crow about Hannibal being a monster for longer than five seconds. An unthinkably genuine happiness he doesn't mind sharing with Chilton, crossing his legs as he settles into the chair, perfectly comfortable. Shouldn't be too shocking, Will's attachments in the psychiatric community taken into account. Get used to the office, might as well treat it like an extension of the home. Have a drink, sit wherever he likes, enjoy a beneficial conversation with a friend.]
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[personal profile] infomodder 2015-08-16 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[He looks down, shifts from happily devoted to solemn and penitent the moment Chilton gets out a certain word. Future and Abigail Hobbs have one outcome back in Baltimore, try as Will does to rationalize scenarios with happier endings. He knows it. Abigail knows it. But with an imagination as vivid and familiar with limitless horror as Will Graham's, it's easy to encourage himself coming up with ways they could have both gotten out...or making a place for her after Hannibal displayed his dominance and took her away entirely.]

She might take some classes. Nothing's really...set in stone yet. [Particular phrasing with a note of desperation, Chilton might sniff out with how Will answers and reacts but seems to have withdrawn. Gone and hid inside himself while still interacting like he's completely there...he is, but he's coping with something running through his mind and it's likely not difficult to figure out what that is when Abigail is involved. Unfortunately, that withdrawal runs the risk of Chilton taking it as more than the conversation, as some kneejerk rejection of him by Will, and after his conversation with Raina, that won't do at all. It's helpful that Chilton cushions it. Not with his own rusty nature at friendly interaction, but with his, too, particular phrasing. Of course Will notices, and there's a breath of fresh in air in finding it pleasant instead of insulting, intended or not. He takes a breath, too, swallows as his looks to the edge of Chilton's desk before completing the Everest climb back to reestablishing eye contact. Surprised, keen, genuinely interested. The hawk who comes across a brand new predator, wants to know what he is and how he operates, void of any desire to tear with talons or beak. Curiosity, seeing Chilton in a new light, and perhaps best (or worst, depending) of all: that sense of equality that runs through his next words.] When you consider my dogs a prototype...think I'd rather hear your theories.

[Chilton gives a microphone and Will hot potatoes it right at his tie pin, no venom or spite or dare. An invitation to continue, Will finding something else pleasant. Sharing is a part of friendship! He sees this attempt and hands it back not because he finds it lacking or has no use for a microphone, but because it seems like Chilton was genuinely enjoying his time on the Magic Mic and Will has no issue with letting him finish. Why would he? He was enjoying Chilton's crooning for once, more please.]
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[personal profile] infomodder 2015-08-21 04:16 am (UTC)(link)
[An eyebrow arches, barely. Not here to insult or he doesn't want to insult him, and why? Does he think one bout of rudeness too much is going to break the camel's back for Will Graham? Hannibal murdered half the population of Baltimore, people Will cared about among them, and he only ran to him. Not away. But maybe that's part of it? Not wanting to be seen in Hannibal's light—or even worse, his shadow.

He listens, face neutral past that, all of his attention completely reserved for Chilton. A quiet, studious method to lap up words. There's a short silence before he lets out a quick, joyless laugh, but nothing harsh or mocking. Whether he wants to hear it or not, whether he buys that as Chilton's true opinion, doesn't matter. It passes just fine.
]

You're right about that. [Agreed easily, conversational is the name of the game. He may be enthusiastic about dogs. Possibly. Little bit.] Don't ask how was your day or comment about looking tired, either.

[One set of fingers stretches out before tapping against the chair idly.]

And people kept abandoning dogs, back in Wolf Trap. Couldn't rely on the pet shelter, had the room...what else am I supposed to do, leave them in the wild? They wouldn't stand a chance against the coyotes.

[Or cave bears, depending.]
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[personal profile] infomodder 2015-08-24 07:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[He glances past Chilton, swallows down the question he won't ask (Is that all you can see when you look at me? Him?), and takes a moment to screw his courage to the sticking-place before he looks back.]

Thought I could play his game. Win his game. He wanted a friend, you know. That was my in, my unsafe safety net. When he realized, he destroyed the world around us. Destroyed me. Offered forgiveness, laid the blame at my feet, and left us to die.

[Every word is weighed down by regret. Raw honesty that serves as a segue back into deals with a devil without being wholly direct. This was what the devil they knew had done to those he cared for, those who had worshiped at his church, and Chilton knew what the Ripper was like to those he didn't care for. Will can't change anything now, but if there's a chance his gravest mistake might give Chilton pause and prevent him (save him?) from more terrifying brutality, so be it. They were both still alive. Best to keep it that way.]

You can understand why I don't think about going home. But I appreciate your generosity implying he hasn't touched that part of me already, Frederick.

[A strained smile follows, both sets of fingers tapping against the armrests. Chilton may recognize it as a patient who is ready to push off that chair and head out. Coupled with Will breaking his concentration from Chilton and glancing about the room, he isn't being particularly subtle.]
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[personal profile] infomodder 2015-08-25 10:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[Chilton's claim that he'd know draws Will's eyes back to him. Nothing jerky, nothing to show surprise. Merely giving him his attention again, like his name was called without any real emergency behind it. A normal gesture, hands stilling. Stay, boy. Speak.]

You are a doctor of note in the psychiatric field who has taken a professional interest in me. [He shakes his head, letting out a huff of air through flared nostrils.] Not even with you. Especially with you would be more accurate.

[...not for just the reasons he gives, of course. Chilton's already put up a blockade on discussions of Hannibal, and for Will to do everything he could to tear those down would be disrespectful and risky. Chilton hasn't gone through the same experiences Will is privy to, either, which has a habit of putting Will on tenterhooks at the drop of a hat. So if Chilton wants to be included, doing that with more positive rationale laid bare feels the best route, stating facts that can't be ignored however much they may go unspoken. They're just two friends talking openly about dark spots in their relationship. What better way to go about it than by keeping certain spots obscured? That's what real friendship was.]
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[personal profile] infomodder 2015-08-27 11:01 am (UTC)(link)
[Flattery indeed, and Chilton wins a small smile in return for dragging it out even more obviously, Will rolling his neck, lifting one shoulder slightly—all comfortable, easy, and easily read cues. A subdued What can you do? delivered through body language alone—What can you do when it's true, Doc?

Body language that changes completely, hardening, souring at Chilton's last confession. For a moment, there may be some worry Chilton's lost him in the one surefire way anyone can lose Will Graham, that he's put up his defenses and retreated inside. But the conversation is Hannibal Lecter, which is enough to keep him grounded. Will is nectar to Hannibal, and no matter what flattery he gives Chilton about discomfort, Hannibal holds a similar spot for Will. Had Chilton been banking upon Will to follow a pattern just as Will had moments prior?
]

Above it? [Hannibal Lecter is above incarcerated serial killers and, like, Kid Rock concerts.] His diet of choice is the rude. He is not above spite.

[Words Will might look back upon with great dismay one day, and not just because he's doing nothing to verbally ease Chilton. Never necessary when...]

Plan's to put me in his line of sight. [No accusation that Chilton would dare throw Will under the bus. Simple fact, again. Chilton can't throw him under a bus when he's willing to roll beneath, grab the undercarriage, and yell at the driver for being destructive.] What needs revision?

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