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Dr. Frederick Chilton ([personal profile] slightlyoffchilt) wrote2013-10-01 10:26 pm
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- IC CONTACT POST FOR MASKORMENACE -



"Hello.

You've reached the direct line of Doctor Frederick Chilton. As I am not available at the moment, you might assume I'm quite busy with something pressing. State your name and business, and I will return your call."
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[personal profile] kingpawn 2015-08-08 05:49 pm (UTC)(link)
But I will satisfy you. I can. You know damn well I can.

[ He spared a glance downward -- his hand movements so very subtle beneath the table, but still moving. Still grasping and touching and violating. Chilton had gone in and violated Walt's mind, so this was only fair. It was justice -- one Chilton had started, one that Jesse fanned the flames of, and now one that Walt was going to finish. ]

And it's only right, isn't it? To give back to my creator. To give back to the man who made me everything I am right now.

[ Walt set down the glass before reaching out with his free hand. His index finger pressed to the side of Chilton's stubbled jaw, turning his face toward him. ]

I'm crazy, Chilton. Mentally unstable. [ The corner of his lips quirked upward. ] And I think that excites you. I think it gives you a thrill. I think you're so perverted and twisted that you get off on danger. And well, Chilton....

[ Walt leaned over, whispering with a wolfish grin: ]

I am the danger.
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[personal profile] kingpawn 2015-08-09 02:48 am (UTC)(link)
[ The only humanity left was simply fumes of guilt -- guilt, regret and remorse for Skyler and what he had done to her. But that guilt had been swallowed in favor of this. Jesse took from Walt, and Walt paid it forward to take from Chilton. And the instant he could make the man lose control of himself, he won this little game -- whether it be to stop him from what he was doing or an unintended release.

His grasp tensed and his rhythm increased from the slow and steady to moderately quick. Chilton was reacting just the way Walt wanted him to, and his pride alone kept this going -- fanned the flames. Chilton even took Walt's words and accepted them, donning the title of Creator without fuss or fight. So predictable when it came to Frederick Chilton -- arrogant and cocky son of a bitch. ]


Something happened in Baltimore, Chilton. I didn't leave it as the same man I went in. And that was thanks to you. I realized something there. You are vital to me. In ways even Jesse is not. The way you make me feel, Chilton -- my hatred for you makes me alive again. You ruined my life while simultaneously becoming the center of my world.

You did create me. This me. And now I no longer want to simply dominate and control you.

[ His mouth neared Chilton's ear, words nothing more than a husky whisper. ]

I want to own you.

[ A beat. ]

Now. How long can you hold back before you burst, I wonder? Whether it be through words and protests or....otherwise. Either way, you're going to give me what I want.
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[personal profile] kingpawn 2015-08-09 06:11 am (UTC)(link)
You're right, Chilton. You aren't Jesse.

[ Walt stopped the movement of his hand abruptly, though he didn't release Chilton which might have been more torturous than continuing to stroke him. He glanced down at Chilton's arm around his shoulder and then at the one stationed on his bicep. After the quiet pause, he looked back into the psychiatrist's eyes. ]

You're better than Jesse. Think about it for a moment -- I have. Jesse never appreciated me. Jesse never truly respected me. Jesse doesn't give a shit about me. Not anymore. But you do. You want to see me flourish. I'm vital to you. And you have me now. Isn't this what you wanted? What you asked for? You wanted to reach out and touch my mind. You wanted to release me from the imprisonment of being Walter White. And now, I'm merely returning the favor.

[ And after the temporary reprieve, his hand began to move -- more aggressive and intense than before. The reactions of Chilton's were thrilling. Of course, his touch did waver after the comment about not wanting to own one man. Disappointing though it was, Chilton didn't fully understand Walt, although he claimed to. ]

You don't know me as well as you think you do, Chilton. And how could you? We never truly discussed this. But my mind has always been a singular focus. I no longer have Jesse. Not the way I want things with him. And if I screw up, I lose him for good. And quite frankly at this point in time, I don't care. If he wants to go hang around his replacement for me -- let him. Jesse is a disgusting piece of doublecrossing shit.

[ Never mind the fact that Walt had betrayed Jesse first. Never mind the fact that Walt tortured, taunted, threatened, and turned on Jesse first. No, in Walt's mind, Jesse was the one who made the offense. ]

Right now? You are the only one I have. The only one I want. And if you think you can just use that therapist voice of yours to convince me to stop this, clearly you're thinking too small. And you're not exactly small, are you, Chilton? I mean....no part of you is really small.
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[personal profile] kingpawn 2015-08-09 11:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[ This was a shining moment of triumph for Heisenberg. Chilton, the man who had tortured him so thoroughly from the beginning -- reduced to nothing more than a breathless, struggling mass beneath his grasp. It was beautiful to behold. It was arousing. It was a thrill of complete and utter domination -- proof that Walt didn't have to rely on chemical means to get Chilton to respond to the reward. ]

Maybe I will. Maybe I won't. You don't exactly seem to want me to stop. I could be cruel. Bring you right to the peak and let go. You would still have your dignity knowing you didn't succumb fully. But man would you ache.

Why don't you tell me what it is you want, Chilton?

[ Walt had been so focused on his psychiatrist, he didn't even remember there was anyone else around. And when the bartender spoke to them, Walt glanced up -- irritated by the interruption which he viewed as a distraction. Perhaps something for Chilton to focus on outside of them to stave off the inevitable. But, as casual as could be, Walt waved his hand dismissively. ]

We're fine. The drinks are excellent. We're still working on them.

[ He lifted his glass toward the bartender when he smiled uncertainly and then went on his way. The only help, the only salvation was leaving them to tend to other patrons. And with him gone, Walt could focus entirely on Chilton. ]

You could always try begging me to stop. If that's what you want.
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[personal profile] kingpawn 2015-08-11 10:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It wasn't as though Walt didn't have compassion. It wasn't as though he didn't care. He could have met Chilton's desperate look with cruelty, but instead there was understanding on his face. It was a terrible feeling, wasn't it? To have ones power stripped away. Walt understood it far too well. He felt for Chilton.

Which was exactly why he needed to do this. This was to be a valuable lesson. So to Chilton's question, Walt offered an honest: ]


Revenge, mostly. But I also believe this will help you to be a better therapist. At least in regards to my problems.

[ Walt looked away from Chilton, turning to his drink and bringing it up to his lips. He took his time to savor the alcohol, an expression of enjoyment on his face. But more than the alcohol, it was the shuddered breaths and shivering man beside him that he enjoyed. How much longer? He could feel the taut tension beneath his grip. ]

This is, after all, pretty much the same thing Jesse did to me. So how will you cope with it, I wonder?

[ Walt met Chilton's wide-eyed stare. ]

But more short term than either of those things, I want to see the look on your face as you lose it. The ecstasy, the agony, the loss of control. Because for that one second, that one pivotal and blissful second -- I know you won't be able to hold back that beautiful expression, the open-mouthed pleasure.

[ Walt spared a brief glance down at the crotch of Chilton's pants before looking back up to his face. ]

You fought a good battle, but it's over. You know you can't win. You know there's only one thing you can do to end this.

[ For Chilton's pride in not wanting to beg, he would suffer the humiliation. ]
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[personal profile] kingpawn 2015-08-12 03:06 am (UTC)(link)
[ There it was. The look Walt wanted to see. Although he could feel what was happening beneath his touch, seeing it present itself on Chilton's face? That was the turn on. The way he had one final burst of defiance before he succumbed made it all the better.

It was only after Chilton rode out the last of the rippling tide of waves that Walt pulled back, finally reprieving the man from his touch. And after a moment, he studied that hand before he brought it into his mouth -- finger by finger popped past his lips and cleaned. It was an act of possession as much as it was taunting. Look at the mess YOU'VE made indeed. ]


It was perfect. Everything I thought it would be.

[ He smirked and then pushed Chilton's mostly untouched glass in his direction. A gesture that said 'drink up, you deserve it.' ]

Now, you were saying something about making me do something? Do you honestly believe you're in the position to make such empty threats any longer? What we just did was me staking my claim on you. You belong to me.
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[personal profile] kingpawn 2015-08-13 09:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Walt knew what that brief pause would have been if Chilton hadn't caught himself. And he supposed he could have taken offense -- that even now, Chilton still viewed him as a patient. But the pause to Walt meant that Chilton was respecting him. Finally. At least enough to choose his words carefully. And that solidified this method of attack was a success. ]

You underestimated me. Clearly. But then again, I think you've been doing that from the beginning. Remember that time you pistol whipped me?

[ He finished off his glass and gestured the bartender for a refill. Then his attention returned to Chilton once more. ]

I don't remember a lot of that night, but I do remember that. How far we've come. Or rather...how far you've come.

[ Walt grimaced. The innuendo felt disgusting to say, and he regretted saying it immediately. That was more something that would have come out of Jesse's mouth. Not his. But instead of dwelling on it, his expression became curious. ]

How are you feeling? Right now?
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[personal profile] kingpawn 2015-08-14 04:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Your impression would be accurate, but it makes the situation no less humiliating.

[ The age difference. The age difference was what was killing him the most. But once Walt got his drink, he wrapped his hands around it, staring into the contents as he addressed Chilton's prior comment. ]

But used? That's a start. Do you, perhaps, feel as though the control has been taken from you? As though the roles have changed? Do you feel betrayed in some way? Are you angry that you didn't have enough willpower to resist? Did the guilt turn you on so much it was impossible to stop?

[ Walt shifted himself a bit. They called them guilty pleasures for a reason, and what he had just done to Chilton? Well, that came with its own interesting side-effects. Walt was mostly able to push his own feelings on the matter to the side in favor of reminding himself this was a necessary evil. It put him and Chilton on the same level. But damned if he wasn't turned on from it. ]
Edited 2015-08-14 19:17 (UTC)
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[personal profile] kingpawn 2015-08-15 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
[ The look Walt gave Chilton was one of pure exasperation. Of course the man would dodge his questions. Of course he would turn this around on him. Walt wanted Chilton at a level where he could relate to him -- where he could crack open Chilton's head and see the thoughts on display. He wanted to ask a question and not have the evasive tactics. He wanted honesty. He wanted to know Chilton inside and out.

All part and parcel of owning him. ]


Do you understand it?

[ His brow raised skeptically. ]

Do you even understand me anymore? I don't think you do. I don't think either of us do.
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[personal profile] kingpawn 2015-08-15 04:24 am (UTC)(link)
Who are you trying to convince right now, Frederick?

[ Walt didn't typically use Chilton's first name. He had a few times, mostly in mocking. But he tended to stick to a strict surname basis. No Doctor. No Frederick. Just plain Chilton. So this was yet another form of attack. Another way to become familiar. Another way to rebel against the title of 'patient.' ]

Because what just happened between us was you succumbing to me -- so what if my attentions promised an even greater reward? Something more stimulating? You can't deny that you love it when I touch you.

[ His hands moved upward to brush Chilton's cheek, chillingly affectionate. ]

And my theory is that you secretly love this loss of control. It's as thrilling as it is frustrating. And you're so willing to ride it out just for the chance to one day take back what you think should belong to you. Because it doesn't matter how many losses you face, how many unexpected outcomes -- if you're the ultimate victor, it will all be worth it, won't it?
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[personal profile] kingpawn 2015-08-15 05:55 pm (UTC)(link)
You don't get a triumph. Not the way you're imagining one.

[ Walt planned to die. To rid himself of this world and his problems once and for all. Chilton would never get the satisfaction of having Walt.

His hand slipped down to Chilton's throat, thumb pressing lightly against his Adam's apple, feeling the vibration of Chilton's voice against his touch. He remained calm -- completely cold and calm as Chilton unleashed his verbal attack, tearing into Walter's motivations, picking apart his psychology while simultaneously reminding him of the family back home that hated him.

And it was just as calmly that Walt's hand removed itself from Chilton's neck. It raised and swiftly came down to backhand the psychiatrist unless he had enough foresight to either hinder its progression or get out of the way. ]


You still have so much fight in you. And I wouldn't have it any other way. That will make tearing you down into nothing just that much more enjoyable, Chilton.
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[personal profile] kingpawn 2015-08-15 09:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Walter let out a sound that was half irritation and half amused. Chilton sweeping in the take the credit, accepting the blow as though it was all part of the carefully preened mental damage he was doing to him. As though this result was anticipated. Chilton had started the madness, but Walt wasn't following his guidance. ]

Does it? It must make my father so proud.

[ He mocked and looked at the marks he left behind on Chilton's cheek and jaw. His palm went out to cup his face once more, and Walt unleashed chemicals to get the healing process started as well as accelerate it. No questionable evidence left behind for anyone to find. Guess who didn't care about any of the watchful eyes? ]

You can take credit for the idea, Chilton. The concept. I'll give credit where credit is due. If it wasn't for you, I would be wandering around aimlessly in the dark. But now I have a solid plan, an escape from this world. I'm alive and awake. And not even Jesse will mourn me when I'm gone. I think the only one who will, will be you. And not for any reason other than missing your life's work -- your perfect creation. The one time you actually got it right.
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[personal profile] kingpawn 2015-08-16 05:28 am (UTC)(link)
[ He was about to comment about being very well-versed in English literature, but then Chilton made a confession -- or what he perceived as one. Walt raised a brow and his expression became one of disgust. ]

So you did align yourself with Lucifer. I fucking knew it. Can't wait for that to blow up in your face. It's only a matter of time before one of your demons turns on you.

[ Didn't Chilton even take into consideration that Abduxel was working alongside Crane? Didn't he stop to think for a moment about what Lucifer was and how he deceived? For a smart guy, he sure was an idiot. ]

And that is also exactly why we can't work together. You're not a trustworthy man and those you align yourself with are even less so. I don't know what game you're playing with me, Chilton, but you should be grateful I'm even wasting my breath talking to you. You should feel honored that I even agreed to meet with you on Friday evenings once more. But I told you already, didn't I? Everything about this is on my terms.

[ He reached down, lifting the watch bearing wrist into Chilton's line of view -- making him look at it. ]

You don't get say. You don't get power. You only get to give advice when I ask for it. You can be a passenger on my journey -- my gift to you for your enlightenment. You can belong to me. But you're never going to be my equal. And you certainly don't get any say in what I choose to do. You either accept it the way you accepted my hand in your pants, or you reject the notion and lose me -- getting to go back to your twisted harem of demons. Are you fucking them, too?

[ Too. As though to imply he and Walt were intimately engaged in some way beyond Walt pretty much forcing himself upon Chilton. ]

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